Conundrum

I don't always make sense, but I am not confusing. I am peculiar. 

I listen to Christian, Rap, Country, Rock, Hip-Hop, Pop, and R & B music, but not all at the same time. It really just depends on my mood. I'll sing along with Chester Bennington or Amy Lee all day, like they need my vocals. And in the next breath, I'm rapping to "Make 'Em Say Ugh," by Master P. I could try to explain how during a season of my life, Eminem's song "Lose Yourself," ministered to me; how it gave me hope in reminding me that in order to find my life, I would first need to lose it, but that's a concept some of y'all just won't understand. #ohwell

Often times, I see and experience God in ways that have involved secular music. 

I order books, and audio materials for people who don't look like me or think like me. The collection I manage has got something for everybody including believers, people of color, and queer folk just to name a few. I believe representation matters. When people peruse library shelves they should find materials that speak to them and their experience. You may disagree with someone's lifestyle choice, but that doesn't mean it warrants exclusion.

Librarians, Doctors, Nurses, Lawyers, Therapists, and so many other professionals cannot afford to be biased when it comes to the services we offer. The public we serve must feel comfortable coming to us as they are without fear of rejection. We are to accept them, and offer what they need and want.

I am also a follower of Christ. I believe the Bible has the power to shape my life on earth while preparing my soul for eternity through my actions. I don't keep a physical Bible at work because I've learned how to meditate on God's word, and carry it in my heart. 

Kindness goes along way, and some folks need to receive your kindness first, before they ever embrace your faith as their own. 

Life has taught me to choose kindness over religion, and to remember that Jesus didn't die for religion...he died for love. Until people feel loved where they are, and how they are, trying to shove Jesus down their throats won't work. People need to feel love. The question is will it start with you?

I may not look like you, talk like you, or walk like you. I am moody, competitive, overzealous, and just an overall hot-mess! But I will tell you this...I love me some ME. So does God. Heck, he loved me so much that He sent His Only Begotten Son to die for a wretch like me...and YOU! 

So that's it. I am a conundrum. The kind who is bold enough to live an untraditional, unorthodox, unscripted life for Jesus that's tailor-made and uniquely fitted for me. #saved